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  Poetry Log - 7/6/23 “Gorgeous Concubine” Do I love you? Do I hate you? O, need! A need is the sensation that has festered against my skull, Flipping under my eyelids when I blink slow, At rates inefficient for my growth! Groaning: I groan for your heart. I groan for your chest, I groan for your eyes, Had you sincerely looked upon me, you would have seen my cries; Untouched wanton. Unsightly irony. I should tear your flank from your baseless sides, If not for my own nails cracking at the sight. As I look upon you, I love you; Supple corner after supple corner, boyish age, love-like song, A direct rove, stumbling dance, though off my world. As I look upon you, I hate you; Standing between feet, breathing between lungs Stepping into ‘trite’ trinkets and praise and gold. No air shall flow through my nose As I sleep inside silver lined barns And eat amongst yet to be wombed men. To tear you limb from limb, Knowing your villainous deeds, I grin at the overblown, dastardly concept, But ...

Acting as Exercise Nonyi Usua     I got my first instant film camera as a birthday present over the summer of 2023; a Polaroid Sx-70 because I saw Andy Warhol's polaroid portraits and I thought they looked cool. The photos are technically... poor, but the collection is more of an attempt to explore space, composition, and physical expression as a way to process and understand (and express) my relationship to other people and how that manifests in my internal state of mind than a technical display. Which sounds like a bunch of nonsense, but it's the best way I can put it.     I attempted to create an candid, but personally exposed feeling. As in the viewer feels, looked upon. There was one photo I attempted to take with everyone in the program looking at the camera, which I feel would've been affecting to a certain level, of course, I had just run out of film and the photo I had taken before that turned out to be an all white bust, which ...

     So a few weeks (months now) ago, I went to see   Into the Woods at the Ahmanson Theater with Gavin Creel, Stephanie J. Block, Krysta Rodriguez, and co. I'll mention that I sat in like the front of the nosebleeds so I did not have the closest view of their faces, but none of my complaints are really with the acting, but more so the staging and the tone. But I did have binoculars during the second act!     I have to say that Into the Woods is such a well done show on the page, and (when it's done by people who know what they're doing) usually on the stage as well. I only really went so I could see Gavin Creel irl because he is my musical theatre Jesus. It was kind of disappointing in that sense because from my seat I couldn't make out his face without the binoculars. It didn't really even feel like I was in the same room as him, which considering the distance between us, it could be argued I wasn't. But it was all okay because we were breathing the ...

   Movies: Her Loving Vincent Ready or Not The Invisible Man Cry Baby Babylon No Country for Old Men Assigned Theme/take away:  "There is none! Nihilism core :p" Her (2013) Director: Spike Jonze Screenplay: Spike Jonze      My favorite role is actually Spike Jonze as 'Alien Child' in this movie, fun fact! Jokes aside, Her is really fine. I put off finishing it for so long, and I'm not totally sure why. I would just never finish it. I would fall asleep in the first half and then give up, or just never make it through at all. I think it's probably the whole robot angle, and the lack of a physical body just didn't hook me. But I will be honest and say that the world of the movie feels a touch dead. Sterile, cold, invulnerable -- like there's a wall up. That most definitely could've been a purposeful choice in atmosphere, and if it was, I am very impressed. But you best believe I'm not going to try and find out. Regardless, that fact made the movie...

  Barbie (2023) Director: Greta Gerwig Screenplay: Greta Gerwig, Noah Baumbach "Crash course in feminism for the 6th grade girl."     I read a reddit comment that said people often use the, "it's just a film about a kids toy" statement to defend Barbie from any thematic criticism. And maybe I'm wrong, but I feel like it's accurate. When I see people giving probably too in depth analyses of the content of the film, I don't see this point brought up as much. It's kind of a double standard. When negatively charged analysis is done,  you're expecting too much from the film, but when analysis for the opposite purpose is done, no one bats an eye.     In my opinion, Greta Gerwig hasn't directed a good film since Lady Bird (2017), and I don't have high hopes for the rest of her directing career. I know she's only directed three films, but if she continues down the blockbuster path, I just think it's unlikely I'll get very much enj...